Warning

Every though

is drowned out

by your name...

Every emotion

blackened

by your memory

My scarred

heart is unprotected

from your words

For you

have no decency

or emotions

You

are just what

I was warned

About.

Stung

Hateful words

Hurtful glances

stream into my heart

Hurt by your words

Stung by your thoughts

I go numb...

MY mind unable to THINK

my HEART unable to speak

for I can't believe

What you are telling

ME

Suffering

This pain surging
through my heart
Is indescribable.
This feeling of
Complete hopelessness
is pathetic.
This sinking feeling in
my stomach shouldn't
even be there.
So Why?
Why am I
Letting it all
Get to me?

Fresh Start

Dizzy and dependent,
I let you control me.
Everything about me.

You controlled me,
Physically and played
games with my inner mind.

You kept my soul chained
and my bonds clear
and yet you
said you loved me.

My heart wouldn't let
me love you.

So instead,
You kept me a prisoner.

You resulted to fear and intimidation
and you provoked fear
into my heart
and into my life.

So while the hands of fate
were twisting away,
So was my life.

I am stronger
Thanks to you
And more determined
Than ever
To start anew.

Mind Games

Raped of my choices
and of my heart
everything that once meant
something to me,
is now gone.

As I sit here
mourning for what I've lost
for when I lost you
I lost everything.

I lost my soul,
and my mind
or was that
when I was with you?

You were like
an invisible poison to me,
that I couldn't get enough of.

Why didn't I realize
in time?
I could have
saved myself
a lot of grief.

The Darkness Fades

At the sound of
your name
the darkness fades

and I am happy
once again.

You are the light
that shines in my
heart.

You are the one
who keeps me sane.

You are the love
that I have never
known.

Key to my Heart

My heart belongs
to you -
and only you.

You are the
reason behind
every smile.

You are the only
one
who holds the key
to my heart.

What Would You Do?

What would you do
If your heart was torn in two?

Two different people,
Two different lives,
Two different loves,
One of them attached,
One in love with you.

Would you cry?
Scream?
Tell lies?
So that you could keep them both?

Not me.

For I want neither.
All my life I have waited
for the "right" one,

And this -
has helped me
None.

Nothing Left to Give

Alone in my mind
Hiding from the world.

Shielding myself from hurt
And the pain.

I stare into space
into this black hole
which has become my heart

There is nothing left to give.

Numbness

Hiding from the world -

Hiding form you.

Hiding from my thoughts
desperately trying to escape.

New thoughts converge in
My mind
About you
About what we used to be.

And I wonder
What went wrong?

With no answer
Or explanation.

Hateful words
Hurtful glances
Pierce my heart.

Hurt by your words
Stung by your actions
My mind goes numb

My mind,
Unable to think.

My heart,
Unable to speak.

For I cannot believe,
How you are treating me.

True Love

My thoughts turn to you

drifting...

doting...

you are the one whom I trust
the very heart of me,

You warm my soul
complete my smile,

You are the one
who makes waking up
worthwhile.