Already Known Pain

My heart aches

With an excruciating pain--

for you have done

what I'd never thought I'd feel again...

I don't know what to do--

or what to day

don't know how to act

or what to do.

Will someone help me?

Will this drive me insane?

I try to think

Of other things.

Suffering

This pain surging
through my heart
Is indescribable.
This feeling of
Complete hopelessness
is pathetic.
This sinking feeling in
my stomach shouldn't
even be there.
So Why?
Why am I
Letting it all
Get to me?

Nothing Left to Give

Alone in my mind
Hiding from the world.

Shielding myself from hurt
And the pain.

I stare into space
into this black hole
which has become my heart

There is nothing left to give.

Already Known Pain

My heart aches
with an excruciating pain -
For you have done
What I never thought I'd feel again.
I don't know what to do
Or even what to say -
I don't even know how to act -
Or what to do.
Will someone help me?
Will this pain drive me insane?
I try to think
Of other things ...

The Doctor and the Injections

I was in a doctor's office seeing the doctor for bronchitis related issues. The doctor walks in and then decides to give me injections. For some reason, my dad's side of the family is in my room along with my mother, sisters, and brother. I ask her politely if I can move to another room to get the injections for some privacy. She tells me no, that they are going into my hand. She said I would need six injections total and that would mean three in each hand. I scream at her that I have rights as a patient and I refuse the treatment. She laughs at me and tells me that I can't. At that moment, two men come down the hallway with a gurney with a body on it (wrapped up), that looks like it belongs to a two or a three year old. In that moment, when I'm distracted, the nurses inject the medication into my hands.